5th May
BANK HOLIDAY
7th May
Today I recieved a funny message from Rebecca, Anns assistant. She asked if the post Ann had uploaded onto Instagram with me was a mistake. My heart drops everytime I get a message from Rebecca as it’s never anything positive anymore. I feel as though I am being made to look and feel stupid. Lots of the people around me have told me not to worry. It’s definitely a lesson to learn. I have been very lucky this year. Everyone has been super friendly and kind. I suppose it was too good to be true to end on a clean sweep. Its hard to find the balance of sticking up for yourself but also not wanting to get into an argument with a very argumentative person. I worry if I do stand up for myself too much, words can be twisted and reported back to Ann to suit Rebeccas story.
12th May
Today we had a discussion about the Instagram. Rebecca had clearly chatted to Ann via email. She was very clever in the way she delivered things. I thought she used Anns naivety with Instagram to her advantage. Saying things like ‘Its not like that Ann’, I was a bit shocked by this whole conversation. I think I need to get better at standing up for myself. In that situation I felt as though I couldn’t speak up and back myself. Instead Rebecca led the whole conversation without me standing up for myself.
I felt quite gutted after this conversation. Rebecca was trying to make jokes with me, as much as I was trying to act like it wasn’t bothering me it really was. I couldn’t belive a 50 year old woman could act like such a child and be so rude and unkind to someone else.
14th May
Today we were on a roll in Anns studio. So much was tied up anmc completed. And, even better it all looked good and worked how we wanted it too.
This week on the 16th May Ann turned 90. She invited me along with 6 others to her party and dinner. It was such a lovely day and so nice to speak to Rebecca normally. I am so glad I set the problems aside. By forgetting about the situation I was able to be completely normal, without thinking she was so mean! I think long term it’s the right decision as I don’t want there to be any awkwardness in the work place especially for Anns sake.
19th May
We continued working away prepping for an exciting visitor on Thursday for Ann. This way Anns pieces will be sold and seen more. He does seem like the perfect man for the job.
21st May
My last day with Ann for a month or so. We were sad about this day, however know its not long at all. Ann is so excited for me to go to Thailand and learn from the weavers in Chiang Mai. Ann has told me lots of stories about weaving out there. I feel well prepped for this next adventure. I will still be able to see Ann at the carehome for the next two weeks, but its not the same as working away in her studio.
